A new dawn, a new day, a new life.

2009 went by before i could even attempt to grasp it. Everyday i lived and strived for nothing more than the next day. And here i am, 365 days later and what have i acheived by living for tomorrow? See, this is the problem with living in the future. Yes, it is wise to look ahead, to prepare yourself with what is to come. But when you live in tomorrow when you have today, you steal each precious moment from your own self. There is nothing wrong with being anticipatory about the future. But never forget today. Today is where you can thrive, where you can change, where you can live. I have spent so many days in 2009 living for tomorrow, living for next week, next month. And i've forgotten what i already have. I have today. It was always the moments that i sat back and realized how truly blessed i am, realized what a beautiful day and life i've been given that i truly appreciate. The days where i watched movies with my family or drove around with my crazy father or simply sat around laughing with my friends that i truly remember and cherish. The days that were unplanned, the days that just happened.
Even though i feel as if i've waisted so many days in this year, i have had some pretty amazing experiences. I graduated from high school and started college. I finally realized who my real friends were, and found a lot more out about myself. I found my passion. I met amazing people, amazing friends. I had my first garment walk down a runway. A little piece of the world got to see my creation. And even though this list of experiences may not be very long, I am grateful for them. Each and every one.
So as i enter the new year i don't want to make resolutions for just 2010, but for the rest of my life.

1. Live a life that would make God proud.
2. Help others, as much as possible.
3. Be kind. Make others happy, make myself happy.
4. Stand up for what i believe in. No matter who is up against me.
5. Stop swearing.

Five goals shouldn't be too hard to handle :]

2010 will be beautiful. Not only because i know it will be, but because i will make sure it is.

Happy New Year!

Runway Show Numero Uno!!

Is it strange that i read my own posts? Because i was reading this one and i couldn't tell you what i thinking when i wrote it. I honestly don't know.

EDITED VERSION.
So i had my first runway show on friday night and, just my luck, i did not even get to watch it. There were so many supporters, parents and friends, that came to see the show that half the crowd could not even fit into the room with the runway. All of the designers, aside from the few that were smart enough to sneak in, had to watch their designs walk down a hallway, I was angry when it happened, but now it's not that big of a deal. I got to see my dress, and everyone else got to see my dress so i can't really even complain.

Our assignment was to take thrifty finds and make them beautiful again. I loved this assignment. I loved working on it and i'm really proud of the finished product. I know i don't know a lot about designing yet, but i know enough to realize that what i do makes me truly happy. If the clothes i make can make me happy, and other people happy then i can't really ask for more. I know that i'm lucky, and really bless to already know what i want to do for the rest of my life, so the least i can do is take advantage of it.
After the show was fun. So many people gave me the nicest compliments. It made all the hours spent on my dress well worth it. Even my saucy teacher was wonderful towards me and collegefashionista.com interviewed me for an article in january that will feature me and my dress. I honestly couldn't ask for more. I just hope every runway show i have for the rest of my life goes this well. And better.







So if this night wasn't amazing enough, Dana Buchman came to the fashion school earlier in the week to critique the Senoir fashion students' final collection. She might just be the cutest person ever. Not only does she say that eeeeverything is fabulous, but she has the tiniest little legs that are just adorable. She is a sweetheart and i swear i sat and listened to her for almost two hours. She is a dream, i couldn't get over how cute she was! It was really fantastic to see a real designer that was so kind and optimistic and genuinely excited about young designers.
Dana Buchman is fabulous, if i do say so myself.

Too eat, or not to eat?

Weight has been a talked about issue for as long as i can remember. Everyone is either too fat or too thin and no one is ever happy about how they look. I'm completely sick of it. I hate that everyone is judging one another based on physical appearance. I hate even more that millions of people are hurting themselves just to lose weight and look like girls in magazines and on the runway. Don't they see that those girls are struggling just as much as everyone else is? Most of the time pictures in magazines are retouched anyways, so everyone is trying to obtain a body image that does not even exist. I hate that everyone believes this false image of beautiful. I am guilty of looking in magazines and saying "i wish i look like her". But i'm scared that these girls in magazines that are seemingly flawless are causing us to not only harshly judge ourselves, but others as well.

Take Gemma Ward (above and left) for example. She is adorable. The fact that everyone decided that Gemma was now ugly because she gained weight is completely ridiculous. Thank God she gained weight, i thought she would break in half in she bent over too quickly. I know that her thin body was "ideal" for the fashion industry, but how can anyone possibly say that her beauty is gone and that she's done in the fashion industry? It's heartbreaking to think that becoming a real person would ruin her career. I would love to see more women that can serve as positive role models in the fashion industry. I mean, can you imagine seeing REAL women in the magazine spreads? Finally we could see how clothing would really look if we were to purchase it instead of thinking we had to weigh 100 pounds just to look nice in a dress. Honestly, there are more body types than a negative A cup and a boney butt. I'm tired of looking at knobby knees. I wonder if anyone else is?

Another girl that i love to death is Crystal Renn (right). Whoever does not think she is stunningly gorgeous is either blind or under the influence of some foreign substance. What woman would not want to look like her? I'm so thankful there's a model who doesn't look like she is in desperate need of a sandwich. Yes, i think thin models are beautiful. There are so many gorgeous models out there. But i honestly think that when a girl can be full-sized and happy with herself, that is more interesting.

Truthfully, i do not know how to design for full-sized women. But i want to learn. Full figured women will break their way in to the fashion industry. And i will be congradulating them the entire way.